a typhoon of uncertainty, hidden beneath the heart.
walking past by a pool of unknown faces, do i wave to them goodbye?
do i believe in myself? or do i force myself to believe? or will i believe in myself if i believe?
i chose to not believe.
i had failed to walk on, because i had chose to not believe.
false lies and false hopes had risen from the falsehoods that people create in life
and as the very last fraction of hope fails, i swear to myself
never ever to put hope and faith onto people that had failed me again and again,
and i still had chosen to not believe
words that echo within my heart, saying that im weak
im the only one that understands my weakness
you touched the wounds that dont easily heal
and gave me hope, and a hug
oh the overflowing tears, if only i dont stop them..
how nice it would be if only i could cry out loud to this world
though there may be a time when ill forget all of it.
tons of regrets that are carved within my heart, there's no turning back
will i be able to laugh? if they are faded away? uncertainty
ah... could i spit out the dark memories, hatred that lies within me?
should i be happy? when i walked away from you when your voice is calling out to me?
and i faced darkness everytime i do so.
there will be no answers that are visible
fragments.. of a certain uncertainty
as im dreaming a dreamers dream
a soul shard of it stabbing into me
with you walking away, saying "good bye"
as i wake up from this dream.. its soothing to see you
and as i close my eyes again, as it warms my cold emotions
and without noticing it, i found the answer to my certain uncertainty.
flowers danced under the warm sun
you move on, with dreams and hopes upon your shoulders
i want to send you off as you began
i know i should have done that properly and seriously
the flowers that im sending convey all my smiles and love
along with my message:
thanks for laughing with me,
thanks for crying with me
dont worry, i will always be fine
i will always be there for you
keep going, for i will always follow you
dont worry, because you are not alone
you will always have a place to come back to
right here to me.
a simple message that goes with this message
i love you my darling dearest
Happy Valentine's day.
