i had once heard of these words, if a person were to just given a second in dire times, he or she will just turn around and run, giving up everything. is it true? i choose to walk on the pavement that was put before me. thats what everyone can do in this world, something so that you dont lose the very light that shines on your life.
seizing the very dreams that you had, protecting whats important, dearest, and beloved to you, thats how i choose to live mine. to hold and grasp whats before me, i wish to never let it go ever again. there is always a flame thats hidden deep within your heart, why choose to hide it? let it go, embrace your dreams, make your wishes for it will be granted to you. God will provide.
not everyday is a sunny day, thats how life is. so when bitter cold rain falls, open your umbrella. if you dont have one, ill be your umbrella, opening up whenever there is a downpour deep in your heart. for there is no map on how to live your life, thats the reason why we are free.
dreams... to run faster than the wind, aim farther than the skies, and you will find a new you. why is that so? because to run faster than the wind, and a dream that is so much farther than the very skies that serves as the roof of the world to us, are impossible. but what is impossible? aim for it, and you will find the very you that you are searching for, standing right there waiting for you.
but somehow, sometimes, its always a wonder, whether can the skies be reached. sometimes, i dont even know what is my plan for tomorrow. it is indeed the best to forget unneccessary things, for there will be no time for fooling around. but how is it that memories can be erased when it is already etched and engraved into the mind? i wonder. waking up from an endless dream, in this world, robbed of everything dear due to my own doing, in this world of nothingness, once. as it seems that im losing grasp of even my own dreams, one thing remains for sure, my faith and memories, and feelings and emotions, that once existed, and will always be.
someone showed me a movie, a movie that i had once watched, long and forgotten. it brings back memories, and as tears fall down. i know, that is what you wished for me to do. and as i transcent from this world of nothingness to reality, i begin to grasp on to the word, responsibility. the winds blow, whispering soft words from your heart, ill come and see you as you are. ambiguous words are surprisingly handy, will it echo through this town? as i shout your name deep inside my heart. i dream to fly on angels wings, with you by my side. will you grant me my wish? but thats selfish thinking on my part for now. for in the future, you are just but a memory, a never ending and a lasting memory, a knowledge of who i once were.
aim to seize the bright tomorrow, to destroy everything that is weak within, the weak self, destroying the very walls that are blocks from walking forward. i guess thats what living is all about. =) believing in your very heart, walking down the path that has been laid down before. grant me your smile, grant me your warmth, grant me your laughter, so i may share with the world, what it means to be loved.
ending this post with a smile. =) God bless
since the last update, i didn actually had much to do in life. sat for my exams, and went back to singapore to see my family. from there, nothing much had happened as i didn do much but rot at home, i went back to sitiawan as jason and willie are moving in to my house at kampar, as my new housemates.
at kampar, on the 19th of may 2009, hoon wah and the gang came to kampar to visit the waterfall as i had made plans to have fun at lata kinjang waterfall. hoon wah, taoge, tiaso, joanne and julian came over. 2 cars left for lata kinjang waterfall. there, had fun with my old mates, and taoge actually climbed the rock and slided down the marble slide that was built there, to our surprise. but that was also because tiaso was provoking him to do so. xD
from there onwards, nothing much had happened till the 26th of may, where i went out for lunch with destenie and chui yee. chui yee called for lunch, and i arrived minutes late. i met this girl called alexandra, an ipoh girl. and she is indeed full of characters =) quite an interesting person. i spent my time that day with her, and indeed it was quite an enjoyable day, one of my best days at kampar. as i usually spend my time in front of the computer, sleeping or doing nothing at all.
alexandra said that she wanted to go to kl on the 27th of may, as she wanted to visit her bf. i was shocked at that sentiment, i dont know why. but that trip to kl was canceled as she said it was too much hassle to go to kl. that day, i went out for breakfast with her, and later in the evening, i actually drove up to cameron highlands with her. i had a marvelous time with her, though it was nothing in particular, just spending time chatting with her is in fact worth loads to me. on the trip down from cameron highlands, we thought we were lost somewhere in the middle of nowhere. LOL. but we reached kampar safe and sound at 11pm.
and that, as i crashed through my boring life encounters, just a part of them, i was wondering, to what am i working so hard for? to what avail? am i dreaming a dreamers dream? to have a perfect life with the person whom i will love with all my heart and soul? where are you thou art summers bloom of mine... these are always questions unanswered.
and as i end this blog update of mine, i wish you good day, and God bless.
