lol, as the title goes, my front tooth actually broke this time. haha... it was actually like this. dao and the gang, said that they wanna come to kampar and have fun for a day. they reached early in the morning.
Dao and the gang - list
1. Dao
2. C haw aka Dicky
3. Julian
4. Wern Loong
5. Chui King
6. Tao Geh
7. Raymond
8. Gideon
9. Hou Wen
the 9 of them reached Kampar in Dao's pajero. LOL, crampy eh.. but im not in that car, hoho... ill just make things worse. had breakfast at Kampar old town's old market. Delicious beef noodle, sadly no picture taken of it. then we went and fetch Tiaso and proceed to the waterfall. as usual, im too lazy to upload pictures to make my blog interesting, but maybe next time =(
i broke my tooth there, as i fell down the slippery rocks, owch... but an accident is still an accident. cant he helped. i thank God that im ok @@ its still the time spent together with close friends that matters. left Lata Kinjang waterfall 2 hours later and i went straight to the dentist to have my tooth checked and "repaired", while the gang enjoy their chicken bread lunch at Yao Kee Kampar. Following are all bla bla's, are more foods... lol
Then the gang went to Tiaso's house to terrorize his place. lol... then entered UTAR because they wanna see the scenery at UTAR, and then KTAR. and the gang travelled home to Sitiawan.
im kinda tired now and hence my blog is very brief. tata for now. God bless.
since my last blog entry, i just started my new year at UTAR. somehow i hoped to get classmates who are similar to me, in the sense that they are serious in work and not those so called sleeping partners. as my first class started, i reached UTAR kinda early. as i entered the class, i saw some new faces. lol.. and as i, the ET being, tried to establish communication by eliciting a silly smile, it was replied with none. i feel so silly. that was then...
2 weeks has passed since my first first class, and as im entering the 3rd week of the trimester, things has slightly changed. but im going to tell and talk about what happened during the 2 weeks. my classrep, i dont know whether shall i screw him up or its my mistake or something... =.=" this is what happened. as nobody asked me whether do i need a photocopy of the notes and tutorials, i printed out those myself. and during the introduction to mass communication tutorial, i saw my classmates having photocopied notes.. i was like.. hmm.. where you got it? they replied... class rep got ask for money to photocopy, you didn pay a? i was like, WTH? since when he asked me for that? fine, forget it. kinda disappointed with some of my classmates, but oh well, i cant be bothered.
few days ago, jason, my housemate... lost his wallet at UTAR. LOL.. of all things to lost.. his wallet? so i fetched him to UTAR to lodge a report to DSA, and then i fetched him to the police station for another police report. at the police station, he received a call from DSA saying that his wallet has been found. and that he need to proceed to his next tutorial class for it as it has been sent there. wao, UTAR is efficient! "i sound so sarcastic =X" after those events, we had an excellent Bak Kut Teh at one of the best bak kut teh shop at kampar. it was excellent.
eh, i forgot to mention someone in here. =) met Richard aka ponytail from my gaming clan, IRC from garena here at kampar. he was here for a church camp at the Grand Kampar Hotel. had a great night's chat at one of the cafe's near GKH. he is an interesting person to talk to, and a person worth admiring.. someone of calibre and principals. he is totally different from who he is online. my friends, willie, jason and i enjoyed our time that night with Richard. he paid for our drinks, omg... i feel so... ahem... i was thinking of treating him to a drink and it was paid by him... so.. haih... my turn will come =)
and as today, it finally rained here at Kampar. it is indeed a blessing from God. the weather is beginning to be unbearable, and i constantly am getting headaches and sleepless nights thanks to it. finally tonight ill be able to get a good night's sleep. haha... and later im going out to fetch Shu Fen over for horror movie... hoho... muahahaha... ill scare her... *evil grin*
and im continuing my search and wait for someone who i truly love.. where are you? oh well, ending my entry with an evil grin, horror movie is waiting. Good night and God bless =)
i had once heard of these words, if a person were to just given a second in dire times, he or she will just turn around and run, giving up everything. is it true? i choose to walk on the pavement that was put before me. thats what everyone can do in this world, something so that you dont lose the very light that shines on your life.
seizing the very dreams that you had, protecting whats important, dearest, and beloved to you, thats how i choose to live mine. to hold and grasp whats before me, i wish to never let it go ever again. there is always a flame thats hidden deep within your heart, why choose to hide it? let it go, embrace your dreams, make your wishes for it will be granted to you. God will provide.
not everyday is a sunny day, thats how life is. so when bitter cold rain falls, open your umbrella. if you dont have one, ill be your umbrella, opening up whenever there is a downpour deep in your heart. for there is no map on how to live your life, thats the reason why we are free.
dreams... to run faster than the wind, aim farther than the skies, and you will find a new you. why is that so? because to run faster than the wind, and a dream that is so much farther than the very skies that serves as the roof of the world to us, are impossible. but what is impossible? aim for it, and you will find the very you that you are searching for, standing right there waiting for you.
but somehow, sometimes, its always a wonder, whether can the skies be reached. sometimes, i dont even know what is my plan for tomorrow. it is indeed the best to forget unneccessary things, for there will be no time for fooling around. but how is it that memories can be erased when it is already etched and engraved into the mind? i wonder. waking up from an endless dream, in this world, robbed of everything dear due to my own doing, in this world of nothingness, once. as it seems that im losing grasp of even my own dreams, one thing remains for sure, my faith and memories, and feelings and emotions, that once existed, and will always be.
someone showed me a movie, a movie that i had once watched, long and forgotten. it brings back memories, and as tears fall down. i know, that is what you wished for me to do. and as i transcent from this world of nothingness to reality, i begin to grasp on to the word, responsibility. the winds blow, whispering soft words from your heart, ill come and see you as you are. ambiguous words are surprisingly handy, will it echo through this town? as i shout your name deep inside my heart. i dream to fly on angels wings, with you by my side. will you grant me my wish? but thats selfish thinking on my part for now. for in the future, you are just but a memory, a never ending and a lasting memory, a knowledge of who i once were.
aim to seize the bright tomorrow, to destroy everything that is weak within, the weak self, destroying the very walls that are blocks from walking forward. i guess thats what living is all about. =) believing in your very heart, walking down the path that has been laid down before. grant me your smile, grant me your warmth, grant me your laughter, so i may share with the world, what it means to be loved.
ending this post with a smile. =) God bless
since the last update, i didn actually had much to do in life. sat for my exams, and went back to singapore to see my family. from there, nothing much had happened as i didn do much but rot at home, i went back to sitiawan as jason and willie are moving in to my house at kampar, as my new housemates.
at kampar, on the 19th of may 2009, hoon wah and the gang came to kampar to visit the waterfall as i had made plans to have fun at lata kinjang waterfall. hoon wah, taoge, tiaso, joanne and julian came over. 2 cars left for lata kinjang waterfall. there, had fun with my old mates, and taoge actually climbed the rock and slided down the marble slide that was built there, to our surprise. but that was also because tiaso was provoking him to do so. xD
from there onwards, nothing much had happened till the 26th of may, where i went out for lunch with destenie and chui yee. chui yee called for lunch, and i arrived minutes late. i met this girl called alexandra, an ipoh girl. and she is indeed full of characters =) quite an interesting person. i spent my time that day with her, and indeed it was quite an enjoyable day, one of my best days at kampar. as i usually spend my time in front of the computer, sleeping or doing nothing at all.
alexandra said that she wanted to go to kl on the 27th of may, as she wanted to visit her bf. i was shocked at that sentiment, i dont know why. but that trip to kl was canceled as she said it was too much hassle to go to kl. that day, i went out for breakfast with her, and later in the evening, i actually drove up to cameron highlands with her. i had a marvelous time with her, though it was nothing in particular, just spending time chatting with her is in fact worth loads to me. on the trip down from cameron highlands, we thought we were lost somewhere in the middle of nowhere. LOL. but we reached kampar safe and sound at 11pm.
and that, as i crashed through my boring life encounters, just a part of them, i was wondering, to what am i working so hard for? to what avail? am i dreaming a dreamers dream? to have a perfect life with the person whom i will love with all my heart and soul? where are you thou art summers bloom of mine... these are always questions unanswered.
and as i end this blog update of mine, i wish you good day, and God bless.
Good morning! hehe, here is another update of mah blog. went back home last friday for a brief vacation, to see my mother and my sister, because my sister is coming back from singapore for a few days, though i know ill be going back to singapore soon. but i miss my sister so badly im going back home to see her. =)
there is nothing much to do at home actually. other than sleeping, eating, sleeping, eating, and in the end, take out my notes and read for 5 minutes and sleep again. <-------- signs of a lazy bum xD. hence, speechless.
was feeling kinda down on saturday night, and without knowing, my hands just smsed her saying dat im feeling down. this is a bad habit i really must change. haha... the next day, my sister reached home. i talked to her about many things. everything that has happened that i know of at kampar. its glad talking to my sister, she will just listen and tease me if i did something lame. but in the end, its the advise that always matters. feel glad that i actually can pour out my thoughts to somebody, instead of blogging some really emotional stuffs. lol..
i concluded that a person, no matter what, must really learn to put down a burden if its too heavy to carry. it does not mean throwing the responsibility away, but put it down for a moment, think of it and then think of how to make the load easier. it goes the same for everyone in every task and decisions that were to be made.
secondly, never talk about something that you dont know. sometimes, a mispoken word, acts like a million double edged swords. why so? you hurt others and in the end, you yourself will face all the consequences of it. the same goes for others who cant reason well, who believe in only themself and not others. no doubt we dont live our life for others, but we cant do well in life if its not for others. balance it. i do not wish to mention who in my life that actually acted like that, and that its the first time i actually saw a lecturer blaming herself for what others did, said and write.
for those that actually did or said or wrote whatever is it that acted as a double edged sword, sometimes an apology is just not enough. do something about it... if u think ur not happy, think of others, you think they are? put yourself in their shoes before judging and writing stuffs about others. who are you to judge? when the judge Himself is standing at the door. sigh...
and i better go to class now. someone is nudging me nonstop to go to class. xD there is a presentation later, and i wish to do well. =) have a good day to all of you, and God bless.
“how long before we see each other again?”What made me think that, you were saying it with a nice expression?I always pretend that there’s nothing bothering me but ill always listen till morning as you make excuses, because i want us to be connected. because everytime, you dont seem to notice
Even though “i want to be loved” in my own way, it feels me but i cant see you, i just have the feeling that one day i’ll never see you again, i want to tell you that, but it seems that i always cant find the right words. Maybe i should lie, maybe its ok, but i cant even say, “please, dont go away”.
Our styles aren’t similar at all, totally not similar at all. But somehow, im always learning to adapt to your style, your habit of “haihzing” whenever you are bored. i figured some of these ages ago, they just sucked.
I dont have a girlfriend then, seems like a relationship for me to kill time with. Those are some of the excuses i told my friends, no way im pursuing her, huh?but i tried to win her over with boring jokes, im lame, maybe she is sick of me talking, now im trying to lock her out, for i am locking myself in, for failing to find the key to her.
“Dont go away”, its what i wanted to tell you,“open up your heart to me”, its what i hoped for. “be there for you”, its what i wanted. there are so many things to say, but i just can never seem to find the right words. hence, this really sucked. lol?
is it possible for our hands to come together? is it possible for me to reach you? will you forget me someday, if i do leave this place someday, with you behind. Will you remember, me?
Sorrow, i dont remember this word, i begin to grasp “pain” as i wake up in a dream in a familiar world, hidden at the back of my memories. im heading for that white cloud, seeing you. ill make it through, for i know, what ill find.
In my dreams, You are standing here with me, living, breathing, seeing and feelingwhat little miracles and wonders, all of their own.Its fine to say, NEVER GIVE UP!, KEEP CHASING YOUR DREAMS! but the more time i spend saying, its the less things i get done with life
and here, ill let the remaining of courage in my heart, the remains of what faith is, the remains of everything, help me survive another day. i once take it for granted, but now i wont. learning to cherish things as it is, accepting things for what they are and its a promise that ill never break.
and here i am, standing at the crossroads, should i pursue my dreams, to be with you? or shall i give up. all for the sake of, love. to love you with everything that i have, is what i wanted to give.
thanks for reading. good day, and God bless
just a few days since i last updated my blog. and surprisingly or maybe not surprising at all, i update my blog everytime i feel upset. here goes
was kinda busy with studies recently. but still im trying my best to spare time for her. i finally opened up to her about how i feel towards her. she said she was happy because she finally know what im thinking about? what will dat be? happy at first? maybe. thats what i felt when i told her that, definitely i felt lighter.
it was then, a few days after that.. she was distant again. i really tried my best. i always wondered, am i but just another friend to her? i only talked a few words to her daily. she wont even say hi to me even if we just met somewhere after awhile. she will just turn away from me and then greet another friend. honestly, it hurts… am i a mirror? well, frankly speaking im hard to miss isnt it? =( im trying my best.. i really am. but at this rate, i fear emotionally im going to be broken. why is this so.. all i ever got from her, is complains complains and haihz, hot day and etc. cant she just like, talk to me in a normay way like how she talk to pple… she will laugh and laugh while talking with others… like how she will use to talk to me… BUT ITS NOT NOW!
why is it always this way, always like i dont know, im not ready for a relationship, i still cant forget my ex… its not as if im not willing to wait, but why are you pushing me away… it hurts.. seriously it hurts… i long to hold her in my arms one day.. telling her how much she meant to me… is it a wrong decision? sometimes i just feel like giving up.. because even if its like this, going on means nothing to both of us at all… maybe it would just end up in more misunderstandings… sigh.. sad…
as for today, did a careless mistake during test? yucks, that totally sucked… and that, concludes my blog entry for today. and… thanks for reading… somehow.. and i know… a bear from the north pole reads this too. thanks… for always being there without me knowing it. good night, and God bless.
