BunZ World

a typhoon of uncertainty, hidden beneath the heart.
walking past by a pool of unknown faces, do i wave to them goodbye?
do i believe in myself? or do i force myself to believe? or will i believe in myself if i believe?
i chose to not believe.
i had failed to walk on, because i had chose to not believe.

false lies and false hopes had risen from the falsehoods that people create in life
and as the very last fraction of hope fails, i swear to myself
never ever to put hope and faith onto people that had failed me again and again,
and i still had chosen to not believe

words that echo within my heart, saying that im weak
im the only one that understands my weakness
you touched the wounds that dont easily heal
and gave me hope, and a hug
oh the overflowing tears, if only i dont stop them..
how nice it would be if only i could cry out loud to this world
though there may be a time when ill forget all of it.

tons of regrets that are carved within my heart, there's no turning back
will i be able to laugh? if they are faded away? uncertainty
ah... could i spit out the dark memories, hatred that lies within me?
should i be happy? when i walked away from you when your voice is calling out to me?
and i faced darkness everytime i do so.
there will be no answers that are visible

fragments.. of a certain uncertainty
as im dreaming a dreamers dream
a soul shard of it stabbing into me
with you walking away, saying "good bye"
as i wake up from this dream.. its soothing to see you
and as i close my eyes again, as it warms my cold emotions
and without noticing it, i found the answer to my certain uncertainty.

flowers danced under the warm sun
you move on, with dreams and hopes upon your shoulders
i want to send you off as you began
i know i should have done that properly and seriously
the flowers that im sending convey all my smiles and love
along with my message:

thanks for laughing with me,
thanks for crying with me
dont worry, i will always be fine
i will always be there for you
keep going, for i will always follow you

dont worry, because you are not alone
you will always have a place to come back to
right here to me.

a simple message that goes with this message
i love you my darling dearest
Happy Valentine's day.

Enchanted, in this very land that i walk..
The trees whisper, the winds blew...
as the sun shines right on me,
im seeing all that is beautiful.
staring up into the clear blue sky,
as clouds passed by, i see your face..
Enchanted...

As i reach my hands out to you,
hoping to reach you from far...
you smiled at me and took my hands,
floating down from the skies containing you,
you come down to me, in my paradise.
feeling your very touch, as im touched by your soul.
words left my mind, i am dazed..
Enchanted...

Now as you danced across this paradise with me,
sharing our thoughts together, through the tree of life,
and as the seeds of the tree of life came down upon us,
i felt you as i had never did, our hearts and soul are one..
i saw you, the you beneath..
i am Enchanted...

As the night passes, with you in my arms..
the very stars and moons and worlds are staring upon us,
content beneath the protection of the tree of life,
you gave yourself to me, you touched me for me to see all that is beautiful,
my senses touched what words cannot express..
Enchanted.. here in paradise..

I pray that this dream in paradise never ends,
your love outshines the sun, living through life flying high,
i surrender, everything in me to you,
through a world that you had shown me,
that my eyes cant see...
your love that shines my way in paradise..
as you teach me everything that is beautiful,
all the colours of life and evermore..
as i open my heart to you,
living your love, living your life,
seeing through what you see..
i am Enchanted.

I remember when we first met, it was raining silently
You were just standing there and i realize you were crying
silently deep inside you, tears are dripping
you were acting as if you were lonely and hurt
and in one split second i found myself enamored with you
as my joy dances away, spring becomes the wings of my tears
isnt it good if flower petals will just fall, meant only for you
i understand that you're crying because you're sad
im going to stay by your side so i can wipe every tear
to protect you from now on,
protecting you as you live and breathe
from everything that makes you hurt
is more important than any sadness or loneliness
i never understand why it happens so, but i dont care
it is definitely not going to be perfect
but i swear ill make you happy
promising to protect you
to protect my memories of how i loved and was loved
my gaze will never falter, and ill wish everyday from the bottom of my heart
that you, will hold my hands
as i be with you, protecting you with all that i have

Well, this is the end of the 3rd week of sem 2 here at kampar. nothing much really happened recently other than me, "ore sama no" getting a kidney stone. my left kidney is hurting since i went back home for my semester break. but seems that due to me, not drinking enough water, i caught a kidney stone. it hurts, seriously. been drinking chloroform solutions for 1 week! ARGH! taste awful. craving for Carl's Junior burger =D

looking at the bright side of it, on the last day of my medication, held a BBQ session at my house here at kampar for a small gathering of previous foundation classmates. its kinda fun though. =D screw the pain, fun and food =D though i know its not good, and i have to drink and gulp down more than 2 litres of water =.=

life is pretty much well here, relationship with darling sarah is getting pretty well. which is, cheering me up quite often. i love you dear, muackz

sem 2, the only thing that i really hate during this semester is colour studies. THE BLOODY YOU KNOW AND SHH LECTURER IS REALLY PISSING ME OFF DURING EVERY SINGLE LECTURE, WITHOUT FAIL. You know? YES MISS WE KNOW. thank you very much. colour studies is nothing but colour colour colour colour bla bla bla bla bla, and i hate water or poster colours. disgusting, dirty. yucks... but no choice, it carries and weigh heavily on the coursework marks... sigh, pointilism... im supposed to submit it next wednesday, and its saturday today, and i havent start colouring it yet. goodness, better start after i end this blog post.

recent happenings at kampar, 3 students died during a waterfall vacation which was supposed to be a picnic trip that turned up to be a disaster, and who is to blame? nobody but themselves, and here i give them my condolences... no hard feelings. they have been warned by the locals not to go there, and they insist. 1 survivor, who doesnt want to be named, survived.



something nice for myself though this week. =D a new set of gaming desktop. which is, razer arctosa silver, razer deathadder refresh, razer goliathus, razer moray. =D my first blog pictures on the left.

and here, i end my post and updates for today, wishing everyone a good day, take care, stay healthy, and God Bless.

its just a simple term, love isnt just a feeling, and it is something that you do. anything and everything special that you will do just for the other party that you care for in your life. that is love to me, in my own terms. am i willing to give you everything that you wanted? i hope that i can, because i want you to always be smiling. to always be laughing, the sweet laugh that had always brightened my day. the sweet music in my ears. no matter what you are going through now, i will always be there by your side, if you are willing to use my shoulders to shelter you from everything harsh in life. dearest sarah, thank you for giving me so much and doing so much in my life. thank you for believing in me. and now in this blog entry, i end this with something that i will never get bored saying to you. i love you. always.

God Bless.. =)